Scary Questions - Friday Five

I don't like these questions this week... but I'm so wired from the damned steroids I'm in the mood to ramble and type... One of my lifetime ethics codes has always to be straight-up honest with people, sometimes at a detriment to myself, but I have an over-active conscience, I'm not even religious, I think my dad ground it into me, he's the same way. We're both always worrying someone misintepreting things we said, it's hard to curb the need to overexplain things sometimes...

1. When was the last time you cheated? I do everything the hard way, unfortunately. I've never cheated on anyone in a relationship, and I never cheated in school. I'm not sure if the fear of getting caught was worse than the moral implications...

2. When was the last time you stole? I had the bejeezus scared out of me in elementary school when I was in a local five & dime store and a friend of mine stole something and they grabbed both of us. Our parents had to come get us, if I ever had a thought of stealing after that, the shame of that incident cured me. I've always been one of those idiots who tells sales clerks when they give me too much change back, etc. Maybe because I've been a cashier, maybe because I know it will come back and bite me kharmically. I also worked as a security officer and store detective for years...

3. When was the last time you lied? My career goal in my 20's was to be a police officer, so I'm pretty boring. Come to think of it, though, I did lie about my vision in the applications because I was so desperate to get in. You were supposed to be like 20/30 max and I wore contacts but they were super thin and couldn't be seen. I would have failed the medical physical eventually (got them corrected later with RK), but that does count. I'm a bad liar to people who are close to me, I'm more of an "omission" type person. Like I "omitted" telling my husband I had two credit cards instead of one, and his pet peeve is being lied to, so now he's calling me a liar, which just crushes my self worth, because one of my guides in judging myself and others is honesty. The older I get, the more brutally honest I'm actually becoming. Not in a cruel way, but I think there are enough lies floating around out there that people need to hear the truth more to stay grounded in reality (don't get me started on politics).

4. When was the last time you broke or vandalized another's property? I'm terrified of breaking things, even my own things. Probably like 15 years ago when I backed my ex-husbands giant old car into the brick flower beds at my apartments. Didn't scratch the car, though.

5. When was the last time you hurt a loved one? My husband with the credit card "omission" fiasco. And the sad thing was I wasn't running around just blowing money, the economy tanked so bad after 9/11 I was just trying to keep up financially and the whole thing made sense in my mind. But he's terribly hurt and thinking I did it personally against him.

Posted by Morticia at July 18, 2003 03:01 AM | TrackBack